We all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.
So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me.
Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.
Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

     It's been a while since I've written one of these, but school is over and I'm finally back home with my family.  On May 1st Colin, Darby, Yovishen and I got the keys to our new apartment and we moved all of our stuff in.  The place really is beautiful, I'm so happy that we've moved out of the sketchy old place and into somewhere that we can actually show off with pride. I'm just itching to get to IKEA and spend some money to make the place look awesome.  Move-in weekend was a blast, though it was really busy.  After all of my stuff was safely locked away in my room, Mom, Dad and I went to visit Matt's new house.  His parents actually built a house that they intend to re-sell after Matt (and maybe his sister) is done living in it, and it's GORGEOUS.  5 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, great kitchen and living space...it's so nice.  My parents ended up leaving me there and heading back home by themselves, and Matt, his friend Gord and I had a blast that night. 
   But now I'm home, and I started work yesterday.  That's right, I'm back at Tim Hortons making your coffee and bagging your donuts.  It's actually great to be back.  A lot of my friends from last summer are still there, and there are plenty of new people to meet.  Both of the shifts that I've worked so far have gone by smoothly and I'm shocked that I still remember how to do everything (except the Mastercard payment, but come on now, who really uses a credit card for their double double?).

   Tonight I was watching a bit of the new Michael J. Fox documentary, The Adventures of an Optimist, and it made me realize that I've spent too much time writing about my insecurities and complaints.  I mean, what's the point to that?  There really isn't one, so I've decided to post more about the really good things in my life than the bad ones (though I'm sure I'll sneak a few more bitch-rants in here and there ;D). Because happy things are nice to read about, and I feel good writing about them...I feel like I should finish this paragraph with something really profound and cliche, but nothing comes to mind. :P

OH!  And if anyone knows how to make sick layouts and would be willing to either help me make one or make one for me, please let me know because I hate this one and I'd like something a bit more ~personal~.  Thankss <3

<3  Can I please just comment on how it says "Succeed Together" in the background? 
I love you bitches.

    Yikes!  I'm moving tomorrow and it kinda freaks me out.  Or, my parents are moving my stuff into storage, since they're going to Mexico and are unable to help me move out before the new tennants move into my house, and I'm sleeping either on a couch or bumming at Matt's.  I can't believe how quickly this year has flown by.  It really doesn't seem possible that it was eight months ago that Darby and I carried a couch across the road while Evan watched us from the porch, or Colin, Darby and I played pool at Riley's, or I lay awake in bed sweating because it was sooo humid in this attic at the end of August.  Other things, though, seem like they were ages ago, like doing my placement and waking up at 4:50 am to go to rowing. 
    But this year has really be an amazing one and a real learning experience.  It's been a year of firsts, amazing times, hard times, and one that I likely will not forget. 
    Some of the Highlights?
    Academically, I've learned that I can absolutely NOT do schoolwork on a tiny desk, in my house, or when I have addicting websites like this to occupy me! haha.  It's definitely much more difficult to do well when you don't live at the campus, and services like Academic Skills aren't as readily accessible.  I used and abused Academic Skills last year, whoa nelly!  But I also learned that I'm capable for writing decent papers without anyone's help, and that I CAN write a 6000 word essay and do all of the research in less than two weeks.  It's not easy or fun, but it is possible, and that's reassuring (I got 73% on said paper, which I'm extremely proud of).  Additionally, I learned that I love primary classrooms: little kids are endlessly entertaining.   My con-ed placement experiences have given me some tips as to how I'd like to run my own classroom someday, and I can't wait for that day to come.  Also, my three lessons went really well when I taught them to the class, and let's just say that teaching 20 6-and-7-year-olds how to tell time is tough! (Plus, the kids really seemed to like Miss Kerr.)  I am also so thrilled that I met the staff that I did at my placement school, because they were incredibly welcoming.
     Personally, it's been a huge year for me.  I spent the entire year living for my own and fending for myself, which was huge.  No more friendly caf ladies to serve me "delicious" Aramark food, having to worry about things breaking in the house and paying bills...big stuff!  I never thought I'd become such a huge clean-freak.  Now I know how my mother feels when I leave my crap all over our house.
    Also, I've had a lot of "firsts" that most people have in high school.  I'd never been a drinker at all, but this year I have discovered the whiskey sour and never looked back.  I told myself I would never smoke, but I will admit to trying that twice (one puff per time, soooo gross) and I guess I've come as close to regretting that as I have to anything.  I had my fifteen-year-old rebellion and pierced both of my nostrils.  I skipped a class or two, though those were totally legit because I was working on other assignments.  
    This was also a pretty big year for making new friends.  I've met so many great people, whether it was in class, through friends, from THC, or from cabinet.  I really appreciate all of them, and am so glad to have met them all and have them in my life.  Also, I've realized what it means to have some real, true-blue friends who are there for you whenever you need them.  You know who you are, and I love you all for it so so much.
    Romantically, it's also been a big year.  I've gotten over old relationships and moved on, which was not easy to do.  I've found someone I NEVER would have pictured myself with, who makes me happy and is plenty of fun.  I've had to deal with people that I should not have had to worry about, but I've come through.  A little frazzled, but fine. 
    Other people have also had some interesting romances this year.  Two of my best friends are getting married this summer (<3), and another high school aquaintance is already married with a baby on the way.  Totally and utterly surreal, if you ask me!  It really makes me realize that we're all growing up.

    It's been a good one, 2008-2009...let's hope that next year will top it!

   I was just looking at one of those questionaires that they have on facebook, and one of the questions was "Do you wish you could tell someone something big, but cant?"  And my answer is yes, yes, yes. 
    In a weird way, it's something that I've already told someone, but at the same time, I almost feel like they don't know the magnitude of it.  Maybe they do.  I really have no idea. 

I love you.  I've told you this, and I know you love me too, but sometimes I feel like I'm not the best at showing it.  But I really, really do love you.  There isn't a day where you don't cross my mind, and seeing you just brightens my day, even if it's just for five minutes when I stop by the TCSA office.  Getting texts make me smile, especially ones before bed.  And speaking of bed, falling asleep beside you in your teeny tiny twin bed is not only suspiciously comfortable, but it makes me feel safe and secure.  When I conduct my lame little interviews in my head, I always ask myself questions about you, just so I can talk about you to myself.  You're so much fun, and I love our cute adventures (even though there must be more of them!  GAH! ahah).  I think that part of the reason that I feel like I'm not the best at showing or telling you this is because of your past.  I mean, you told me yourself that you've looked for reasons to get rid of girls, and even though you told me that you have no desire to get rid of me anytime soon, it makes me anxious.  Maybe that's why I give you so much space.  I don't want to be clingy, or annoying, or anything that would make you see reasons to get rid of me (think "Lakie's time is my time!").  So I hope that sometime soon I'll get the nerves up to tell you this, or you'll read this, and you'll know that you mean stupid amounts of lots to me.  

Ich leibe dich. <3   

    For once, this will be a non-bitching/ranting entry!  Shocking eh?
    So I have a brand new obsession.  Television obsession, that is.  I seem to go through these frequently, usually during exam period.  I'll find a show that I'm obsessed with until I've either finished the show or gotten sick of it, and I'll talk about it allllll the time.  This has happened with Project Runway, Bones, America's Next Top Model, and LA Ink.  This time, my poison is Skins.
     For those of you who have never heard of it, Skins is basically the British equivalent of Degrassi, but much more scandalous.  It follows a group of friends through the different issues that they face: Tony is cocky and arrogant, using his charm to manipulate everyone, even those he cares about.  Sid looks up to Tony but realizes what a douchebag he is, and is in love with Michelle.  Michelle, Tony's girlfriend, deals with Tony's infidelity.  Jal, a gifted musician, feels ignored at home by her record producer father.  Chris's mother has left and he's shagging Angie, the psychology teacher.  Muslim Anwar is desperate to lose his virginity.  Maxxie is dealing with his homosexuality.  Cassie is in love with Sid, and is dealing with an eating disorder and mental problems.  
     Skins has a phenomenal cast of mostly unknowns, though familiar faces stand out.  Nicholas Hoult, who plays Tony, starred alongside Huge Grant as Marcus in About a Boy, and Dev Patel as Anwar, who's breakout film role was as Jamal K Malik in this year's best picture Academy Award Winning Slumdog Millionaire. 
    If you have the change, pleeeeease watch this show!  It's hilarious, and you come to really love all of the characters, even Tony.  (Also, if you watch it, I can have someone to talk about it with.)  I'm finished the first season and am impatiently waiting for the second season to finish torrenting so I can knock it back! 
  

(L to R): Sid, Chris, Cassie, Jal, Anwar, Maxxie, Tony, and Michelle

1. Fly under the radar - which means keep your mouth shut, your head down, and work your ass off for the first few votes.  Don't piss anyone off, and nobody will see a reason to get rid of you. 
2. Work the cuteness - take advantage of the fact that I'm not really hideous, and charm my way into a safe alliance with strong players.  You're vital to their strategies, and you're vital to theirs.  And because you're so nice and bubbly, you're more than likely to get a few votes should you make it to the final two/three
3. Go hard - be sneaky.  Be manipulative, all the while working the cuteness factor.  I LOVE the players who are absolute dicks, because it means they're playing the game. 

     Bad news.  Last night at around 2 am I got a text from Matt saying that he was at the hospital, that his roommate and one of his best friends, Jordan, had tripped and hit his head.  We texted a bit back and forth about it, about how he'd know how Jordan was doing soon and that we hoped he'd be fine.  
     This morning, I was invited by our friend Gord to join a facebook group.  Here's what it said:

Hey Guys
Last night while walking home with Matt, Jordan had an accident.
He fell and hit his head pretty severely.
He has Internal bruising and Internal Bleeding, according to what we were told last night.
He was taken to the Hospital and then was air Lifted to St Micheal's.
That's as much as we know right now, and as soon as anything more is found out we will let you know
Thank You

Matt  wrote
at 11:37

    So today was fantastic.  I handed in my final written assignments for my courses (a 15-page paper about the effects of the black plague on the church, and a personality analysis of Bill, if you're interested) and I also got back a final paper, which I got a "B to B+" on, and I'm totally stoked with that - 75-80% on an assignment that was 30% of my mark? I'll take it! 
     Also, my mom and sister came to visit me!  Sarah was off school because of the literacy test, so they drove for 3 hours to have lunch with me.  I was so happy to see them, I've missed our gossip sessions about rowing, and just their general humor.  The three of us have such a blast when we're all together.  Also, they finally saw my nose piercings up close and personal...wait...I didn't write about that yet!  I got both of my nostrils pierced last Wednesday!  I came home from class at around 4 that day, went into Darby's room, and asked "wanna go get pierced?"  I've wanted double nose studs for at least two years, and since I'd finished a 20 page research essay for my 3rd year Asian history class, I wanted to reward myself. Darby also got a piercing- her septum.  But anyways, my mom and sister finally saw them.  My mother said that she was okay with them, but she thought one would look better.  This didn't surprise me, but I don't care.  I love my nosie and I plan on keeping my teeny bling in for a good while! :)  After lunch at Gerti's, we did some groceries at Price Chopper and went to Wal-Mart.  I picked up Slumdog Millionaire, which I saw a few weeks ago and thought was amazing, plus some face wash, makeup, shampoo, and bathing suits!  I love Wal-Mart suits.  I got a neon orange bikini for ten bucks (score!).  However, I gotta admit, the fluorescent lights in that changeroom really made me realize that the gym is my friend, and that the two of us should get re-aquainted before I bare my nearly-naked-bikini-clad-self to the world this summer! haha.  
    
    Slightly off-topic, I just wanted to talk for a bit about this website that I've re-discovered.  www.gurl.com.  I found it back in the day when I was about fourteen, in Seventeen magazine, which I've religiously read for the last 6 years.  It's a great website - all kinds of games and quizzes, but also it's got really great advice boards.  I love creeping them on a regular basis, especially the relationships threads and the fashion threads.  If you have some time on your hands, I'd definitely suggest that you check it out. 

1. I really hate facebook and forums right now.  They're hindering my productivity out of sheer habit.
2. Any worries I had about _____'s wedding have been put to rest.  She's making the right choice and I am so incredibly excited.
3. I'm not entirely sure why I dislike you.  I just wish you weren't around, things were more fun without you.
4. Sometimes I feel like our communication is lacking, but I know that we're both incredibly busy and I can't expect you to constantly be in touch.
5. I worry too much about things that don't matter.
6. You make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
7. I kind of hate school right now.  It's getting so nice outside and I resent sitting inside all day long researching.